perception of life

high commitment + high effort + low expectation = right perception of lifestyle?
Over days of efforts and struggles not to think about it. It has reach the upmost point that I am able to handle. I am really trying hard to avoid the disappoint and not to have high expectation. But it seems like nothing goes the way I wish it to be.I knew that it is not the responsible that neither one of us should carry. It is just the differences in the concept of living.
Final is just around the corner and meanwhile I am worrying something that I should have get rid of long time ago. Perhaps I am just over sensitive in all these that I faced currently. After all, those are just small little parts. Perhaps I am really sucks in holding this kind of relationship. I am tired of waiting and giving out everything.
Will it be better for me to change all these perceptions?

busy yet unmotivated lifesyle

It has been a while since i last blog. Continuous tests since cny had make the life seems dull and meaningless. Is that truly the lifestyle that has to face by each and everyone? Perhaps I am not suppose to follow the course I am studying now. Am I the only one who feel like this? Or there are others who are feeling the same way?

Whenever I am trying to look forward about my future, I am kinda feel like helpless. Cubicle lifestyle is definitely not the one I am desire for. But then what is the reason I chose this course at first? May be it is because it has a brighter future compare to others? am I being influenced by friends? Or it is because I do not have other choices? Sigh.

Being able to graduate successfully in four years time. That is my aim for now. Sounds easy huh? But it is another mountain that I have to climb. "Again, life is never easy. Blah blah blah..." That is what I had been told my lecturer last semester. He is right. If I really want to be success, I have to stay focus and strive for it. It is always easy to say but it need a lot of hard work to fulfill it.
Cheerio..